1
00:00:20,15 --> 00:00:25,82
I'm going to introduce those of us who went
to the gathering and are going to share

2
00:00:26,31 --> 00:00:31,56
this evening to my right
is Lorna. This is Joe.

3
00:00:33,74 --> 00:00:38,68
Susan. And I am.

4
00:00:40,94 --> 00:00:47,75
I'm I'm in love. Bar the ash
that's in the poll over there

5
00:00:48,46 --> 00:00:52,12
my quote that story was OK
that the sacred fire is

6
00:00:52,41 --> 00:00:58,09
a lot of indigenous people have fire as
their sacred item you know the wheat chills

7
00:00:58,10 --> 00:01:01,62
the each Ollie said this Soon as if they're
travelling as soon as they start they

8
00:01:01,63 --> 00:01:01,88
start

9
00:01:01,89 --> 00:01:08,97
a fire so for Native Americans and
other indigenous people ceremony

10
00:01:09,01 --> 00:01:15,82
is. Is started with the sacred
fire and so the grandmothers

11
00:01:15,83 --> 00:01:22,34
met on Monday morning at sunrise with the
fire keeper and started the sacred fire

12
00:01:22,35 --> 00:01:22,44
in

13
00:01:22,45 --> 00:01:29,63
a sacred way and because the whole it was
from Sunday from Monday morning til Sunday

14
00:01:29,64 --> 00:01:30,73
night so it was

15
00:01:30,77 --> 00:01:37,43
a whole week of the
sacred fire so that made

16
00:01:37,44 --> 00:01:44,37
us in sacred space the whole time
with that sacred fire going and we

17
00:01:44,38 --> 00:01:50,75
went Sunday night after the
fire was out and collected ash

18
00:01:51,53 --> 00:01:58,35
which is allowable we could touch it until
after the fire was out. In the morning

19
00:01:58,64 --> 00:02:00,96
each grandmother had one grandmother did

20
00:02:00,97 --> 00:02:05,20
a ceremony three hours long and then one
in the afternoon and one in the evening

21
00:02:06,03 --> 00:02:11,42
and each time they would they would
first go in to it was like it was like

22
00:02:11,43 --> 00:02:16,74
a medicine wheel it was like twenty seven
stones I think it was in two circles and

23
00:02:16,78 --> 00:02:19,08
there was a it was open
to the east just like

24
00:02:19,09 --> 00:02:23,91
a medicine wheel would and they'd walk in
and they do all the directions and they

25
00:02:23,92 --> 00:02:30,58
do they do their own particular ceremony
to their advantage of culture in that

26
00:02:30,59 --> 00:02:36,35
fire and then they would bring that out
and and when that was down time we were

27
00:02:36,36 --> 00:02:43,33
allowed to go into that circle
give thanks to that fire or use it

28
00:02:43,34 --> 00:02:49,29
to cleanse yourself with or whatever and
at the end when the fire was was going out

29
00:02:49,30 --> 00:02:54,32
at the end of the ceremony we were there
with told us that we were welcome to go

30
00:02:54,33 --> 00:02:59,92
and take some of the ash and take that out
with us and that carried what had gone

31
00:02:59,93 --> 00:03:06,81
on that weekend in in the
in the ash. Wheel or circle

32
00:03:06,82 --> 00:03:13,14
around it was in the center of the big
open power grounds that was surrounded by

33
00:03:13,15 --> 00:03:18,67
a circular covered bleachers so it was all
circular The fire was in the very middle

34
00:03:18,67 --> 00:03:25,62
. So the question was for the sweat
lodges were the stones in the sacred

35
00:03:25,63 --> 00:03:31,32
fire or their own fire they were in their
own fire Yeah yeah it was mix wets women

36
00:03:31,33 --> 00:03:36,48
and their women have everybody had to be
closed Yeah I'd have his address on below

37
00:03:36,49 --> 00:03:43,01
your knees. I mean going. I wouldn't think
more than six they were pretty small

38
00:03:43,05 --> 00:03:47,88
there were six of them and they but only
three of them would be functioning at one

39
00:03:48,13 --> 00:03:49,61
time twice a day

40
00:03:50,13 --> 00:03:57,13
a man was talking and he was sharing how.
I didn't really see I'm I don't know

41
00:03:57,14 --> 00:04:01,94
I'm going to say he's fifty I don't know
how old he was but he was sharing how he

42
00:04:03,18 --> 00:04:09,99
all of his life had had so much. Anger.

43
00:04:11,12 --> 00:04:17,100
Hatred of the white man for his
life for what we did to them

44
00:04:19,35 --> 00:04:25,79
and he said about two years ago he came
upon this realisation the oppressor

45
00:04:27,03 --> 00:04:33,78
is just as traumatized as the oppressed
and when he had that realisation

46
00:04:34,17 --> 00:04:41,15
it totally lightened his attitude
towards the white man is like oh you

47
00:04:41,16 --> 00:04:45,55
know even though you were chasing and
killing my ancestors you were being

48
00:04:45,56 --> 00:04:51,03
traumatized as well I mean it's not easy
to chase and kill someone it's not you

49
00:04:51,04 --> 00:04:56,87
know it's not human nature that's not the
Divine Being that we are doesn't hunt and

50
00:04:56,88 --> 00:05:01,51
kill humans and that is that and somebody
came up to me today and said there's

51
00:05:01,52 --> 00:05:08,12
a woman here in this audience
who I want you to meet and.

52
00:05:09,19 --> 00:05:15,15
He went in matter and he said and she's
real I wanted to make sure she was real

53
00:05:15,16 --> 00:05:21,87
before I brought her to you and she's the
real thing I would like to introduce

54
00:05:21,88 --> 00:05:24,01
you to Custer's

55
00:05:24,05 --> 00:05:30,43
a great great niece and she used it he
said and here she is and it gave her name

56
00:05:31,35 --> 00:05:37,09
and she stands up and she says I apologize

57
00:05:38,68 --> 00:05:45,40
for my uncle's wrongdoing.
Though all I did she broke.

58
00:05:47,31 --> 00:05:54,08
It was it was really amazing. What I
can add to it is that she didn't know

59
00:05:54,43 --> 00:06:00,37
she didn't know where she was going when
she took the trip with her sister or

60
00:06:00,38 --> 00:06:05,02
friend she didn't realize that she would
be on Cheyenne land she didn't realize so

61
00:06:05,03 --> 00:06:08,81
it was it was it was it was

62
00:06:08,98 --> 00:06:15,77
a part of what was to happen there
in the healing. It wasn't her

63
00:06:15,78 --> 00:06:22,53
intention to go there with Lorna Diana
myself and Joe who camp together we went to

64
00:06:22,54 --> 00:06:29,42
Little Big Horn and we took sacred ass
from the sacred fire the fire was

65
00:06:29,43 --> 00:06:36,27
started sunrise Sunday morning and the
fire keeper kept the fire going all the

66
00:06:36,28 --> 00:06:40,85
way until Sunday sunset.
And he was a lookout

67
00:06:40,86 --> 00:06:46,42
a man and so we gathered sacred ash which
is what is on the table which if you have

68
00:06:46,43 --> 00:06:53,10
a container with you you are
welcome to take some home and we

69
00:06:53,74 --> 00:07:00,20
went there and we had our sacred ash with
us and the first place we went to. Was

70
00:07:00,21 --> 00:07:06,48
to the the grave site of
my ancestors were all Army

71
00:07:06,97 --> 00:07:10,62
Cavalry my great grandfather was
a cavalry he could have been

72
00:07:10,63 --> 00:07:15,53
a Custer buddy I have no idea
so I went there and I offered.

73
00:07:17,74 --> 00:07:23,59
I just offered my
understanding of their trauma

74
00:07:24,77 --> 00:07:31,05
to help heal that and then we went to the
Indian pieces and we did the same thing

75
00:07:31,100 --> 00:07:37,99
all there and it felt very powerful.
And there was we heard so many

76
00:07:38,13 --> 00:07:44,43
stories about how the Native
Americans were treated going back to

77
00:07:44,66 --> 00:07:51,09
grandmothers and grandfathers and great
great grandparents and how even now days it

78
00:07:51,10 --> 00:07:57,93
is. It has been hard I think because
they've heard the stories and live in that

79
00:07:57,94 --> 00:08:03,28
fear and one woman got up and said I've
always been afraid I didn't know what to do

80
00:08:03,93 --> 00:08:09,30
and I couldn't go anywhere or do anything
and now I know that there are people here

81
00:08:09,31 --> 00:08:13,41
and now I can go forward and want to share
about that that Calvary when we went

82
00:08:13,42 --> 00:08:18,89
inside to that little viewing room the
museum or whatever it was there was they had

83
00:08:18,90 --> 00:08:25,47
recreated some of the the people that
they had fought and custards army

84
00:08:25,51 --> 00:08:32,41
and looking at this gentleman he
looked so lifelike and so real

85
00:08:32,42 --> 00:08:34,33
it really brought it home and there was

86
00:08:34,35 --> 00:08:37,49
a little little thing talking about it
and it said and I can't remember the

87
00:08:37,49 --> 00:08:44,40
percentage but I think it was at least sixty
percent of the Calvary were immigrants

88
00:08:44,99 --> 00:08:50,49
so they were these poor people that were
from another nation that had no idea what

89
00:08:50,49 --> 00:08:55,65
they were going into they had no they were
probably had nowhere to go and nothing

90
00:08:55,67 --> 00:08:56,88
to do so the Calgary

91
00:08:56,89 --> 00:09:01,64
a Calgary or whatever was the way to go
to survive when they came to the Americas

92
00:09:01,64 --> 00:09:08,30
so that was really interesting to
them. So what I'd like to speak to.

93
00:09:09,38 --> 00:09:15,82
Kind of follows Susan in some
of the ancestral healing.

94
00:09:18,68 --> 00:09:24,84
There were many layers of intention
for ancestral healing and

95
00:09:25,90 --> 00:09:31,65
one that I really came
away with in learned

96
00:09:31,66 --> 00:09:37,95
a lot in them still learning will
always be learning about is my own

97
00:09:37,96 --> 00:09:40,60
ancestral healing and that it's

98
00:09:40,61 --> 00:09:47,17
a responsibility for me to tap
deep into my ancestry one of the

99
00:09:47,18 --> 00:09:54,07
things that was shared. Through story
and through smaller circles in

100
00:09:54,08 --> 00:10:00,62
the evening often in our culture

101
00:10:01,19 --> 00:10:07,48
white culture we look to
other cultures to find

102
00:10:07,49 --> 00:10:14,19
healing and to find ways of of
honoring prayer and ceremony

103
00:10:14,23 --> 00:10:20,82
and what I came away with really
strongly is that it's time for us

104
00:10:20,83 --> 00:10:27,07
individually to tap into our own ancestry
because we are all from indigenous

105
00:10:27,08 --> 00:10:33,41
peoples. And it's not really
about taking somebody else's

106
00:10:34,70 --> 00:10:41,33
ceremony or ancestry and using that for
our own healing it's about tapping deep

107
00:10:41,34 --> 00:10:47,01
into him in you you have to
go way back that was really

108
00:10:47,06 --> 00:10:52,73
a powerful message for me I don't
take it lightly I feel it's

109
00:10:52,74 --> 00:10:58,95
a very important message. And it also.

110
00:11:00,92 --> 00:11:07,58
Allowed me to understand something
about my family we talked in

111
00:11:07,59 --> 00:11:14,13
circle and through listening
to people share about how

112
00:11:14,20 --> 00:11:19,35
anger. Substance and substance abuse.

113
00:11:25,25 --> 00:11:32,16
And and and emotions like that
bitterness judgment can come

114
00:11:32,17 --> 00:11:38,62
from the scars that we carry
through our ancestors. And for the

115
00:11:38,63 --> 00:11:44,97
first time in my life and I'm I'm not saying
this lightly for the first time in my

116
00:11:44,98 --> 00:11:51,88
life I felt like I could look
at my mother's. Suffering with

117
00:11:51,89 --> 00:11:58,52
compassion but in hearing the words that
were shared I was able to understand that

118
00:11:58,53 --> 00:12:05,35
she actually carries the suffering of
many generations in her life without even

119
00:12:05,36 --> 00:12:07,76
really knowing it and it gave me

120
00:12:07,77 --> 00:12:13,70
a chance to look at her through different
eyes which was really such such

121
00:12:13,71 --> 00:12:19,90
a gift. You know I remember being in the
circle and watching that everyone having

122
00:12:19,91 --> 00:12:25,90
the traditions that they had and feeling
that longing for that because. You know my

123
00:12:25,94 --> 00:12:31,54
my heritage is so. So many different so
many different routes I mean there's so

124
00:12:31,55 --> 00:12:34,80
many different ways that I could go with
that that I've never really followed any

125
00:12:34,81 --> 00:12:39,68
of them and which one would I follow and
you know and so so there was that that

126
00:12:39,69 --> 00:12:42,69
longing for having a tradition and

127
00:12:42,70 --> 00:12:47,16
a culture and also it brought me back to
the fact that you know here I've lived

128
00:12:47,17 --> 00:12:52,81
here on fashion my whole life and I've
always kind of felt like I had to apologize

129
00:12:52,82 --> 00:12:56,88
for that or something and watching the
Cheyenne people being so proud of where they

130
00:12:56,89 --> 00:13:01,57
live and their homeland and being that their
homeland that I thought why I need to

131
00:13:01,58 --> 00:13:06,15
take that back and maybe it's time for us
to have our own new traditions that we

132
00:13:06,19 --> 00:13:13,04
that we create I would love to talk about
when the horses and the wolves came in

133
00:13:13,82 --> 00:13:18,24
to the arena and it was really amazing but
five of the grandmothers were writing

134
00:13:18,25 --> 00:13:25,08
the horses and as. They were
coming in and they were so it's

135
00:13:25,09 --> 00:13:31,88
hard for me to talk about but I saw
that the past and the present come

136
00:13:31,89 --> 00:13:36,32
together and I found it and it became the
now time and then it was healed and it

137
00:13:36,33 --> 00:13:41,08
was amazing it was absolutely amazing and
I just want to add something I remember.

138
00:13:43,19 --> 00:13:45,16
Grandmother Agnus telling

139
00:13:45,17 --> 00:13:51,15
a story about that ride she was the one the
lead the horses in she was on the first

140
00:13:51,16 --> 00:13:53,38
horse she hasn't

141
00:13:53,43 --> 00:13:59,44
a mountain named after her in
south western Oregon and quite

142
00:14:00,40 --> 00:14:07,02
quite an amazing presence she told the story
I don't remember what she said as far

143
00:14:07,03 --> 00:14:13,80
as the timing but I think it was
probably maybe weeks or. Shorter

144
00:14:13,81 --> 00:14:18,88
a little bit longer prior to the
ride into the circle that she had

145
00:14:18,88 --> 00:14:24,69
a visit from her grandmother in the vision
and if I remember the story right she

146
00:14:25,22 --> 00:14:30,17
she said that her grandmother came to her
in this vision and her grandmother was

147
00:14:30,18 --> 00:14:36,48
a writer she rode horses that was her
life was the horses and in the vision

148
00:14:36,97 --> 00:14:43,80
all her grandmother told her was get
on the horse. She didn't know what her

149
00:14:43,81 --> 00:14:48,73
grandmother was talking about but when
it came to be that there was this

150
00:14:48,74 --> 00:14:53,45
opportunity for the grandmother some of
them to ride the horses in for the first

151
00:14:53,46 --> 00:14:59,84
time to welcome. She knew.
At that point what her

152
00:14:59,85 --> 00:15:04,52
grandmother was talking to you know about
and she did with her grandmother said she

153
00:15:04,53 --> 00:15:11,10
got on the horse my experience of when the
writers came in. When they came in they

154
00:15:11,11 --> 00:15:15,72
came in on the horses and then there
was the shy and were drumming

155
00:15:15,85 --> 00:15:17,53
a song to the horses they drummed

156
00:15:17,54 --> 00:15:22,16
a couple of songs to the horses and there
was one horse that was in front of me

157
00:15:22,53 --> 00:15:26,77
that was kind of sideways so that it was
like it was looking at me and I could see

158
00:15:26,85 --> 00:15:31,35
I could see that it was like an expression
on its face and the only way I can

159
00:15:31,36 --> 00:15:36,22
describe it was that I could actually feel
what the horse was experiencing and it

160
00:15:36,23 --> 00:15:41,94
was it was humbled and it was grateful
and it was appreciated it was all those

161
00:15:41,95 --> 00:15:47,77
things it was like it was the horse going
through and the horses going through the

162
00:15:47,78 --> 00:15:52,73
experience of the healing also because they
were used when we went to Custer's they

163
00:15:52,74 --> 00:15:59,50
were used by the the Calvary would shoot
them and lie behind the horses to protect

164
00:15:59,51 --> 00:16:01,29
them while they were in battle there is

165
00:16:01,30 --> 00:16:07,14
a grandmother from Guatemala and she had
brought enough herbs to do food washes for

166
00:16:07,15 --> 00:16:13,37
five hundred people and so you
can imagine what you know. The

167
00:16:13,38 --> 00:16:18,74
compassion in that she wasn't able to do
all those five hundred but then the next

168
00:16:18,75 --> 00:16:25,49
day when she had her prayer time she actually
went around and anointed everybody's

169
00:16:25,50 --> 00:16:32,13
third eye that she could reach with oil
that opens your cell memories so that was

170
00:16:32,14 --> 00:16:35,38
like a really big thing
for me to I cried for

171
00:16:35,39 --> 00:16:42,32
a while and that to. The last
day when she gave her ceremony

172
00:16:43,37 --> 00:16:49,03
she first asked the cloud people to
come. To give us a little bit of

173
00:16:49,04 --> 00:16:53,67
a reprieve from the heat because it had
been one hundred seven and one hundred ten

174
00:16:53,68 --> 00:16:59,95
and. I'm not joking you fifteen minutes
later there were clouds in the sky

175
00:17:01,37 --> 00:17:06,28
I wanted to start with one of the profound
things that I heard there which was.

176
00:17:09,23 --> 00:17:16,20
Allow the prayer to come. Which I thought
was just just kind of blew me away it's

177
00:17:16,21 --> 00:17:17,92
like you know how when you go to say

178
00:17:17,93 --> 00:17:21,95
a prayer you're always just kind of blathering
out something but just to take that

179
00:17:21,96 --> 00:17:27,20
breath and allow it to come I
thought that was beautiful

180
00:17:28,51 --> 00:17:31,15
and anyway I kind of

181
00:17:31,16 --> 00:17:36,93
a backtrack so the. Meeting grandmother
Margaret was an amazing experience and

182
00:17:37,31 --> 00:17:42,41
kudos to Lorna to bringing her here and
when I said oh sure let's go did you know I

183
00:17:42,42 --> 00:17:46,20
had two thousand and twelve I figured
that's two years away it doesn't really

184
00:17:46,21 --> 00:17:50,24
matter and then it kept getting closer and
like oh wow what the heck is going on

185
00:17:50,25 --> 00:17:57,19
we're going to Montana OK. So I
wasn't really prepared for it I

186
00:17:57,20 --> 00:18:03,20
guess I didn't really know what to expect
and I didn't know why I was going and you

187
00:18:03,21 --> 00:18:07,87
know I was just kind of along for the ride
so we just blew and we set up our tent

188
00:18:07,88 --> 00:18:11,25
and the next morning you know I got up and
everybody's out and about I don't know

189
00:18:11,26 --> 00:18:16,44
what it is standing around to see me do
this but I get out of the tent and take the

190
00:18:16,45 --> 00:18:21,07
first depth and I just trip
been on him by fits and.

191
00:18:25,43 --> 00:18:31,65
I go OK we are going to be humbled
and air. Before we start this

192
00:18:32,04 --> 00:18:38,93
any. So. About I kind of went fer

193
00:18:38,94 --> 00:18:45,10
thinking you know I had this perception
that the shy and people would be thinking

194
00:18:45,11 --> 00:18:50,09
who are all these people coming into our
territory and you know and and not feeling

195
00:18:50,10 --> 00:18:55,02
necessary necessarily good thoughts about
us invading their space and doing the

196
00:18:55,03 --> 00:18:58,19
ceremony who are all these white people
pretending that they know what's going on

197
00:18:58,90 --> 00:19:04,29
and I found that it was absolutely to the
contrary the Cheyenne people were just

198
00:19:04,33 --> 00:19:11,33
the most warm and welcoming people and
people came from oh over the world

199
00:19:11,34 --> 00:19:11,56
there was

200
00:19:11,57 --> 00:19:15,60
a woman from Scotland that was in her kilt
and she was talking about how she was

201
00:19:15,61 --> 00:19:19,95
embracing her heritage and she was doing
her thing there was one from Spain who

202
00:19:19,96 --> 00:19:24,41
came and talked and she was going to she
was saying you know pray for us we're in

203
00:19:24,42 --> 00:19:30,89
trouble right now and they were just
from everywhere I was taken back by the

204
00:19:30,93 --> 00:19:37,70
landscape because it is so. Barren
and yet so fertile at the same time

205
00:19:38,07 --> 00:19:43,30
the contradiction there the it's just the
it's like nothing could live there and

206
00:19:43,31 --> 00:19:50,11
yet the sacredness of the land is so great
and on the last day we were there I

207
00:19:50,12 --> 00:19:57,10
woke up thinking I just really missed the
water. In so many way I miss the sound

208
00:19:57,11 --> 00:20:02,35
I miss the coolness and the water and both
the grandmothers that day their focus

209
00:20:02,41 --> 00:20:08,78
was on the water and the blessings of the
water and. One of them talked about how

210
00:20:08,79 --> 00:20:10,58
we come into this world in

211
00:20:10,65 --> 00:20:17,19
a river and and the other one was
saying what she said I found very

212
00:20:17,20 --> 00:20:23,84
profound was this that every time you
use water to just thank it and so it's

213
00:20:23,85 --> 00:20:26,68
become a real it's just become

214
00:20:26,69 --> 00:20:30,98
a part of what I do now when I drink my
water I'm just like thank you waters they

215
00:20:30,99 --> 00:20:34,97
drink it so and I mean she said you know
when you flush the toilet when you take

216
00:20:34,98 --> 00:20:39,87
your shower when you get into water so
just be aware of that at one point at the

217
00:20:39,88 --> 00:20:43,47
ending of the ceremony there was somebody
that got up and they were talking about

218
00:20:43,48 --> 00:20:46,39
the Cheyenne people and she said I made

219
00:20:46,43 --> 00:20:51,30
a commitment that every
evening that I would say

220
00:20:51,31 --> 00:20:56,70
a prayer for the shy and people and she
asked us all to get up and all make

221
00:20:56,71 --> 00:20:58,15
a commitment to say

222
00:20:58,16 --> 00:21:03,99
a prayer for the shy people the last day
one of the chiefs because there was

223
00:21:04,00 --> 00:21:10,91
a number of chiefs wasn't there yeah
even my seven clans and. One of

224
00:21:10,92 --> 00:21:17,78
them got up there and he had tears in
his in his eyes he said this is good

225
00:21:19,14 --> 00:21:25,25
this is hard this is
difficult this is good.

226
00:21:26,47 --> 00:21:31,73
This is hard but this is really good you
know because so many so many people in

227
00:21:31,74 --> 00:21:36,85
their individual lives were healed during
this week and the reason that we were

228
00:21:36,86 --> 00:21:42,22
there was not it was not about politics
it was not about all the things that you

229
00:21:42,23 --> 00:21:48,52
think that it would be about it was really
about prayer and ceremony and acceptance

230
00:21:48,53 --> 00:21:55,37
of everybody and it was so powerful.
The question is what can we take away

231
00:21:55,38 --> 00:22:02,10
from this sharing. Of
what comes to me is to

232
00:22:05,56 --> 00:22:11,61
remember to tap in to your divine self

233
00:22:13,11 --> 00:22:19,13
that with that connection. You

234
00:22:20,28 --> 00:22:27,19
will be doing the work. Change you.

235
00:22:29,31 --> 00:22:36,13
Did it changes it and if so how.
For me my summer was very full I

236
00:22:36,14 --> 00:22:41,49
did three incredible pieces of work. And

237
00:22:42,84 --> 00:22:48,57
I feel clear or. More

238
00:22:49,12 --> 00:22:55,68
really here well again. I'm

239
00:22:56,33 --> 00:23:03,12
more. Aware. Of Water number

240
00:23:03,13 --> 00:23:10,13
one and you know and being very grateful I
mean. However it touches me whether I'm

241
00:23:10,14 --> 00:23:15,08
showering in the morning I'm just the thank
you water and I'm drinking it's thank

242
00:23:15,09 --> 00:23:19,33
you Otter. I have.

243
00:23:22,91 --> 00:23:23,28
I have

244
00:23:23,29 --> 00:23:27,99
a lot of questions that I still need to
answer so there's always it's always

245
00:23:27,100 --> 00:23:33,72
a continuing journey. That this
brought up that kind of fueled

246
00:23:33,76 --> 00:23:40,37
a little bit more. Definitely more aware
of prayer and the power of prayer

247
00:23:40,79 --> 00:23:44,34
and trying to incorporate it more in my
life I think that would be the changes.

248
00:23:47,22 --> 00:23:52,61
What did I take away Well you know what
what really lasts it's if it makes

249
00:23:52,62 --> 00:23:59,03
a strong impression. I was
impressed by that. The power

250
00:23:59,38 --> 00:23:59,97
of

251
00:24:00,69 --> 00:24:07,23
a group group energy focused on
something higher that was real

252
00:24:07,80 --> 00:24:12,69
that was that was really real what what
certain people were experiencing in an

253
00:24:12,93 --> 00:24:19,37
intensely and what I felt and it was
real in the direction of helping

254
00:24:19,71 --> 00:24:26,68
and opening and connecting and
personally. Just the conversation

255
00:24:26,69 --> 00:24:32,90
is I had with giant men three of them
in particular never forget those.

256
00:24:35,14 --> 00:24:40,26
I don't know it was like I was talking to
somebody from another world. It was so

257
00:24:40,27 --> 00:24:45,47
different it was new for me I'm sure there
are people who had those experiences

258
00:24:45,88 --> 00:24:49,97
a lot maybe they are that
way there was much that I.

259
00:24:53,90 --> 00:25:00,78
Felt in my heart through the six
perience and the interconnection of

260
00:25:01,09 --> 00:25:07,99
all things and how. I can't exist
without water I can't exist

261
00:25:08,00 --> 00:25:14,55
without the earth under my feet I mean
I I'm here because of something or

262
00:25:14,56 --> 00:25:21,52
someone else and and I feel. That was that

263
00:25:21,53 --> 00:25:22,91
weekend for me in

264
00:25:22,92 --> 00:25:29,84
a lot of ways. And that I also
felt that it was such an honor

265
00:25:30,54 --> 00:25:36,57
and I'm very grateful the for this to
have the opportunity to be there in this

266
00:25:36,58 --> 00:25:42,17
group within this group and to not have
any expectations of what was going to

267
00:25:42,18 --> 00:25:47,02
happen to be but to be a
witness and to be a part of

268
00:25:47,03 --> 00:25:53,02
a group that was holding sacred space for
whatever was going to happen to happen

269
00:25:53,58 --> 00:25:55,71
and it was safe it was

270
00:25:55,72 --> 00:26:02,37
a safe place for that and I feel that
that's going to be in my heart forever.

271
00:26:06,68 --> 00:26:11,01
In it it is my belief that we are all
part of the collective consciousness and

272
00:26:11,02 --> 00:26:16,25
every time someone speaks from the heart
or give someone well wishes or says I love

273
00:26:16,26 --> 00:26:22,36
you it's adding to that and in me becoming
of that collective consciousness in that

274
00:26:22,55 --> 00:26:28,87
space. Things like what
are happening now tend to

275
00:26:29,15 --> 00:26:35,17
cease and will begin to cease and are
beginning to cease so it'll happen less and

276
00:26:35,78 --> 00:26:36,16
when it's in

277
00:26:36,17 --> 00:26:40,01
a group like it was when we went to
see the grandmothers It was amazing.

278
00:26:46,26 --> 00:26:49,86
To. Shout and.

279
00:26:55,95 --> 00:27:01,87
Not Judge. John.

280
00:27:05,02 --> 00:27:11,17
John. That was. Done by or.

281
00:27:12,54 --> 00:27:19,42
Leave. Given

282
00:27:19,43 --> 00:27:19,99
model.